Come Get Me, Death

Morena
4 min readNov 25, 2020
Yama is the god of death and justice in the Hindu pantheon

I have an interesting experience with death. Since I was a young child, I have been fascinated by the macabre/spooky. I have been in serious accidents as a child and during my adulthood. The closest experience I have personally gotten to death is when I went through my cancer diagnosis (where, as my cancer doctor told me, if I even waited two weeks or more, I would have likely had a terminal cancer diagnosis). Growing up, I was first exposed to death around when I was thirteen years old, due to my grandmother (adoptive mom’s mom) passing away from old age and lung cancer. At the time, I was too afraid to face it. I was thirteen, after all. I am twenty-six now and fully believe my own spiritual beliefs (as my work in healthcare) has guided me on how I feel completely at peace with the idea of my own death, whenever it may happen.

In healthcare, if I did the nursing path, I would have happily chosen hospice. Many nurses avoid this like the plague because the idea of death makes them really uncomfortable. I know how I handle my job in healthcare (especially when I did work with patients face to face), I feel that I would be an ideal person for this role.

Growing up, I was raised, Christain. Christianity teaches you either go to Heaven or Hell, no in-between (at least for Greek Orthodoxy, the belief I was brought up in). I broke away from Christianity during my late teens and drifted from one belief to the next, trying to find my niche before I stumbled on Paganism. Later on, I got more specific and now identify as a Hindu Pagan, because my natural beliefs in regards to spiritually naturally aligned with Hinduism.

Hinduism is different. Hinduism beliefs that we are just about in an endless cycle of reincarnation and what we do during our life influences what happens to us after death. If we did a series of bad deeds/behavior, we are punished (but only justly so, it is not for eternity like Christians believe), but once we “paid our dues”, we are allowed to reincarnate into another being. If we did good, we “go up” in regards to how the hierarchy of reincarnation (humans and animals are considered neutral in this scale).

I find this very fitting in an attempt to find balance with the world. When I was going through my cancer diagnosis, it made me really think about life and death, including my own. It made me see the…

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